I QUIT

I want to quit my life. Have you ever just wanted to quit your life? Even just for a little while? That's what I feel like right now. My boyfriend is having a nervous breakdown after just loosing his mother to ALS. I say that I love my job, but I really can't stand it right now, and I groan when I wake up every morning and dread going in. I want a new job that will give me the time to have a life. I want to make more money. I want to be loved and to love in return. I want the most significant relationship in my life to not be with my blackberry. I want my boyfriend to be well and in my arms again, but, right now, I don't know if that will happen. Most of all...I just want to put life on pause for a minute, enjoy myself and come back when things are better. I guess that wouldn't be life then. So, what do I do in the mean time? How do I cope with this? How do I get through this? I wish I knew. I feel like everything is closing in around me even though I know its not. I cry at the drop of a hat or a hallmark commercial. I feel like my heart is on my sleeve and that my face is constantly streaked with tears. I don't know what to do anymore. Alcohol isn't even numbing the pain. Will sex? What works - somebody - please tell me, NOW! I need the solution and the answers that I am without right now! I don't know what to do! I have never felt like this in my life. I want to quit my life.