someone like you

"Never mind, I'll find someone like you...I wish nothing but the best for you too. Sometimes it lasts in love and sometimes it hurts instead."

If you've every heard Adele's hauntingly beautiful song Someone Like You you'll recognize those lyrics. Everyone reacts to music differently, but to me, that song is all about losing your first love. Being gay, it's rare that your first love is your last love, unless of course you're a lesbian and the Subaru is packed after the 2nd date - I kid (but only a little)! It's often a topic of conversation...do you love anyone as much as  you loved that first love? I would like to think so, but I also know that everyone is compared to that first love. I'm not sure that is a good or bad thing...it is what it is.

I long ago learned not the question the love that came into my life...and all the good and bad that came with it. You live, you love, you learn. You move on. You were loved, for however long. You hold your breath and wait for the next love, and along the way you get your heart broken (hopefully not much) and you learn to narrow down the field of suitors. Sometimes you feel like Blanche Devereaux with too many possibilities and other times you're Dorothy Zbornak - home alone on the couch on a Saturday night.

Despite it all, the ups and the downs...you keep your eyes looking straight ahead (you're too easily distracted by things passing by if you don't) and you hope that you catch the gaze of someone who's gaze you catch...the sparks will fly...the chemistry will be there...and then...I'll find someone like you...