Breathing...

I've become quite attached to it. You kinda need to continue to do it. I hate asthma. I hate waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to breathe, or able to catch my breath. I hate having to take my rescue inhaler. I hate that some of my allergies affect my asthma instead of just giving me the itchies...

but I love breathing easy...let's keep it going.

Travel Days...

I feel like I need a break and a vacation just from travelling home and back for the holidays. I loved being home, seeing the kids enjoy Christmas, watching them open presents, etc...but really...all of the up and back and driving, was just exhausting!

On Being a Pack Rat...

I guess I've been one all my life...because I just started cleaning shit out at my parents while I'm here and I had stuff in there that I can't believe I saved. Oy vey! I wish it was a habit I had never picked up...but, I have, and now I have to break myself of it. I just don't have the space in a manhattan apartment, and it's not worth saving some of the crap that I've saved over the years.

I feel like I need a support group...

White Christmas...

it's the first time in a long time that I've had a white christmas. I was so happy as I was driving home to see all of the snow on the ground near my parents. I had just been complaining that I hadn't seen a white christmas in so long...was so nice to have one here!!! not to mention having the kids (nephews) around is nice...

Congratulations!!!!

so...my sister just got engaged tonight. I knew it was coming on Monday...her boyfriend Mike called and asked for my blessing. (which I thought was way sweet since my sister and I are really close). The rock is beautiful...although I have yet to see it in person...that will happen tomorrow!

Congrats to Sabrina and Mike...

One More Day...

one day more...that's all I have left of work this year. After tomorrow I am officially on vacation until the 7th of January. It's a nice feeling. There's not too much going on right now (at this time of year) anyway, so it will be nice to have some time off and just relax a little. Besides...the little fellow (nephew) turns one on new years eve...so...have to spend some time at home for that!

Baby it's Cold Outside...

and the chill is definitely in the air. I'm not sure that the heat in my apt is the same as it's been in year's past. It doesn't feel as warm. Not that I'm complaining about that...cuz it used to be an inferno once the heat came on...

just means the windows don't stay open as long for fresh air...he he...

pedestrian bowling...

I feel like a human bowling ball when I leave the office. there are a ton of clueless tourists around that clog up the street and don't (evidently) know how to walk. a five minute walk now takes 15, and people actually stand there, in the way and don't even know it. it's not cynicism on my part. I've been hit by more kids and baby strollers in the last two weeks than I care to talk about. I have nephews and love them dearly...so it's not a hatred of children either...I don't know what it is.

I just imagine myself as a human bowling ball though as I travel on my way to or from...and I award myself points for those peeps that I can get around...the larger the person, or gathering, the more points...the less space to get by, even more points...getting by without being hit by a baby stroller or umbrella...bells and whistles. half the time I'm imagining that I'm knocking them down...but that's only in my head!

RIP Customer Service

increasingly lately, I have found that customer service is dead. at the cable company, at the bank...almost every where. they make no apologies. they appreciate your business, but they don't want to do anything to keep it, or even sometimes, their jobs. it's really horrible. bad customer service will ruin it all. I could stay with a bank that didn't have all the frills if there was great customer service, or they were responsive when I asked questions, or didn't take three different people with three different answers to talk to me. it's disgusting actually. if I behaved like that at work, or even tried to pull the attitude that is dished out I'd be gone in a heartbeat. ughhhh...

so...RIP customer service...may your memory live on...

connecting...

over the past year, I seem to have re-connected with friends from long ago...I'm not sure what that's about, but there it is. Is there always a connection, if there once was? Does that fade over time? Can it just go away? We'll have to wait and see for those answers, but for now, it's nice to be re-connected.

Patriotism

I'm sick of being labeled un patriotic because I don't believe in or support the president. I'm sick my loyalties being called into question because I question some of his policies and decisions. Most of all, I'm sick of being made to feel bad because I don't support the war. Just because I don't support the war, does not mean that I don't support our troops - they deserve our support - regardless of how we feel about this or any war. But - really - our country was founded on the principles of free speech, why is it when I exercise mine I'm suddenly not a patriot?

clutter...

I've recently started to get rid of all of the clutter in my life...okay...alot of the clutter in my life. I hadn't really realized how much of it here is around. Every day I'm looking out at more and more of it, and just thinking...do I really need this? What purpose is it serving? If I can't answer the questions well...out it goes. Well, not out, to charity. There's a pile of it now. It feels cathartic and good.

Party time of the year...

just got in from a holiday party...one of the first of the season I guess. It's always nice to see people...and everyone's cheery and the alcohol is flowing. I guess I just wasn't feeling festive tonight...although it snowed all day and the mood should have been there...

Frozen Cheez Its

have you ever had frozen cheez its? I was on location tonight and it was mad cold here in nyc. I went to craft service to get some hot cider and some snack food...and got frozen cheez its. They tasted like cheez its, they were just way cold! Don't recommend...but the cider freakin rocked my world!

Cold Weather...

the weather was cold and chilly today...which adds to the feel of the holiday in the air. It's kind of nice to feel this cold, this early in December. I'm not really into the cold that much, but it does make it feel like the holidays are officially here! Yay!!!

Holiday mood...

it's that time of the year, the snow fell and it's chilly outside. It's December in the city and it's beginning to feel like the holidays are here! I think this is the first time in a long time that I can remember snow this early in the season, it's kind of setting the tone nicely. Hopefully there's more to come...I remember growing up all the snow it felt like we got, and it was almost always a white christmas. I can't remember the last white christmas we had...it will be nice if there's one again!

inspiration

that's what I'm looking for...needing to find. It's the time of year that I need to write my holiday letter for family and friends and send out my cards...I'm just not feeling inspired...it's Dec 1...needs to happen soon of folks won't get the letter or cards in time for the holidays!