Fat Kid...

no matter how much I work out, no matter how much I watch what I eat, no matter how much my body changes - I think there will always be an inner fat kid inside me all the time telling me I am fat or I look fat. 

I know that I have made some really big strides lately - the sizes on the jeans keep going down.  I know that there are muscles where there weren't before (well - they are bigger than they were before).  I know why I'm doing this.  For me - not for anyone else. I would like to put something on though and look in the mirror and not hear my inner fat kid tell me I look fat. Sometimes, I think that little voice will always be there, and that isn't necessarily a bad thing...pushing me to keep working, to not slip into old ways, to keep the sizes on the jeans from going up again. 

other times, I'd like the wring the neck of the inner fat kid and tell him to shut up - I've come a long way since the husky jeans of my youth!