Progress...

So I have been going to the gym forever (at least it feels like that), and am finally really seeing progress. I have been seeing a trainer regularly, and I am liking what's happening to my body. I wish that it was easier. I wish that it wasn't as hard and as challenging. I wonder how all the muscle boys that I see at the gym and in the Pines all weekend do it.

I work all day and then hit the gym for at least an hour on lifting days and at least half an hour on cardio days. I eat right and I don't pig out on crap. I cut out carbs after 7PM. How do they look the way they do? How is it humanly possible to go to the gym 2 hours a day and go to work and have a social life? I struggle with work and the gym as it is and balancing a social life. I rejoice on days that I leave a little early and am out of the gym earlier than I thought I would be. I live for those days.

I look at my before and in progress photos and I'm happy with all that I've been able to accomplish, and I do want more progress. I have had a taste, and I want more! I guess I have to make this routine more a part of my lifestyle. I guess I have to do more with less. I have to do more and make more with what I have.

The Lion is Silent...

Senator Edward M Kennedy said, at the Democratic Convention in 1980, “For all those whose cares have been our concern, the work goes on, the cause endures, the hope still lives, and the dream shall never die.”

It's amazing to me that this man, who was elected to the senate many times before I was even born, and has done so much with his political career and clout is gone. It's almost surreal...

I'm watching the coverage on TV and I'm just left wondering what's next? What's next for the family, what's next for the health care debate, what's next for liberalism?

Growing up in a very conservative family, Teddy Kennedy was always a beacon of hope from the other side of the spectrum. He did so much for civil rights, immigration, health care and education. He was a huge supporter of equal rights for all, and there have been few like him. Will there be another to take up his torch? That remains to be seen. Personal life aside, he was truly a leader. He was inspirational, well informed, well spoken and thoughtful in his approach. Think what you will about his personal life, as a Senator his legacy is great.

I am hopeful that the torch he carried will be passed to another generation of political leaders. Ones that embrace the cause of equality for all, ones who understand what real leadership is (despite personal circumstances), and what needs to be done, not what will be popular.

Senator Kennedy - here's to a life well lived! Rest in Peace and thank you for all that you've done.

I showered for this?

So...last night I went out for drinks with a guy, thinking there might be potential. We seemed to have a lot in common. He liked theatre, NYC, exploring the city, lived in my neighborhood (which in NYC is a big deal), was around my age, etc. All the pluses were there.

So, we decided to meet for a drink in the neighborhood. He picked the bar, and I'd never been there before. It was a cute place. I worked all day, went to the gym, did my cardio and lifted and then went home. I had dinner, relaxed a little and then took a shower and got myself all dressed up. I mean I took the time to think about what I was going to wear, how I looked in it, etc.

The moment arrived, and I walked up to meet him at the bar. He's cute, so no issues there. He's shorter than me, but that's fine. Takes care of himself, and was not dressed like a slob, and looked like he took some time to think about what he was wearing.

So, knowing he liked theatre, as I do, I asked what the last show that he saw was, and how he liked it. His response, and I shit you not, was "well, I haven't really seen anything since all of the Oscar contenders which I saw, but I did see XMen." Really????? Seriously?????

So, strike one. Then he keeps checking his phone and texting away to someone. Another Hot Date? A hook up? A Drug deal? Anything's possible in NYC. Strike two.

Strike three comes when he asks if I'm seeing anyone, and I say no. I'm single. Then, when I ask the same of him, he says, he's dating someone. Really????? Seriously??????

Strike Three! And then I just started thinking, I showered for this?