Perspective...

it's amazing thing perspective. it shines an un-wavering light on anything in it's path. it has made itself known to me the last few days. work is great...and I love my job, but it's occupied so much of my time over the last few years, it's made me lose my perspective sometimes. I've often put work ahead of my personal life and ahead of those that I care about, it hasn't been intentional, but in the nature of my work, things happen in a second, and I don't want to fall behind. it's not right, it's just the way it was. my perspective came crashing back down on me recently. I need to make more time for the folks I care about, and it started this weekend...

I'm glad that it did...and that I didn't let work stand in the way...

Fly...

Fly, fly little wing
Fly beyond imagining
The softest cloud, the whitest dove
Upon the wind of heaven's love
Past the planets and the stars
Leave this lonely world of ours
Escape the sorrow and the pain
And fly again

Fly, fly precious one
Your endless journey has begun
Take your gentle happiness
Far too beautiful for this
Cross over to the other shore
There is peace forevermore
But hold this mem'ry bittersweet
Until we meet

Fly, fly do not fear
Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear
Your heart is pure, your soul is free
Be on your way, don't wait for me
Above the universe you'll climb
On beyond the hands of time
The moon will rise, the sun will set
But I won't forget

Fly, fly little wing
Fly where only angels sing
Fly away, the time is right
Go now, find the light


Owen - you are always with me - always.

03/05/03 - 07/01/03

favorite moments

one of my favorite all time NYC moments came recently...actually two weekends in a row. I had met my boyfriend, had dinner and drinks and then dropped him off at the PATH station in the village. it was raining, and there's just something about making out with someone you care about, in the rain, not worrying who was around or what they thought. it has become one of my favorite NYC moments. I always love when I have more of them, but this one definitely ranks up there!

Technology is our Friend...

I keep telling myself that every time my Blackberry (or crackberry as I like to call it) buzzes and email interupts another dinner out with Sean, or the phone rings and I have to hang up with my mother to take whomever is calling the work phone. It's supposed to make life easier, and it does. It also is an umbilical cord to the office/work 24 hours a day - 7 days a week, and I'm not sure how I feel about that. I love my job, but I work alot of weekends (and I'm okay with that) but at what point can I put the bberry down and not worry about it? Can someone please explain it to me? Like I'm a 5 year old?

training...

i work out with my trainer twice a week...and have pretty religiously for the past two and a half months. i'm finally starting to see results...more importantly, other people are too. that's encouraging. i actually am really liking and am flattered by that. guess it's worth all of the sweat and tears...literally! not like i'm doing this for anyone but me..but hey...nice that other people are noticing!

flat stomachs...

sometimes I think that they are over-rated, and then others, I envy them. I'm working on getting mine flat again...and it's far better than it was 8 weeks ago when I started. I want that little V some guys have...although I heard you're either born with that or not...that's discouraging. Not discouraging enough to stop me from working with the trainer two times a week. seeing results in other areas...the tummy is just slower. oh well...I know it's working, and I'm not really doing it for anyone else...doing it for me...so...there!

okay...so maybe I'm doing it to fight the family genes...and so my brother can no longer say I have man boobs (which, for the record, I never had)...but mostly it's for me!

Hair...

for the new year i shaved all of my hair off...got it down to 1/8". not bad for someone who always had a full head of hair and would spend some time on it every morning. it was liberating. it was cool...alright down right cold if i forgot my hat! i buzzed it again at the end of april, and was going to let it grow back in...but now it's 5 or 6 weeks later and it's annoying me. i think i might buzz it all off again. you can be a slave to your hair, always trying to have it look just right, and do the right thing, you can have it and not care about it (until you start to lose it) or you can buzz it all off and not care. it frames and helps to define your face, although, without it, people are forced to look at your face, and not your hair.

it's all so confusing, and not worth the time or energy...time to buzz it all off again! what have i got to lose - it will always grow back!