meet the robinsons...

saw it recently (easter time with my best friend and his mom) and am reminded of it every time I hear rob thomas' song little wonders. such a cute movie...and I have to admit, probably one of the best ones that disney has put out in a long time! so good on so many levels...go and get it when it comes out...well worth it!

can't wait for it to come out on dvd to own...will definitely be adding to the collection!

Travel...

is grating on my nerves. don't get me wrong...have loved seeing new places and old friends where I've been...but I just really want to spend a while at home! want to be able to go out and explore central park...have a picnic with the guy i'm seeing...walk around and enjoy the beautiful weather. luckily there is no travel planned in my immediate future! woohoo!!!

now it might be time to think about getting a new mattress...hmmmmm

travel...

life out of a suitcase sucks! it sucks! I feel like all I've done lately is travel. 10 days in San Francisco for work...now another week in LA for work, and then the weekend away in Long Island as soon as I get back...WOW! I'm wracking up the miles. Don't get me wrong...loved San Fran...and loved that Sean went out and spent some time with me there...and will love being on Long Island/Fire Island for Memorial Day...but my bed hasn't seen this little love in I don't know how long! ;-p

just sayin...

FRAMILY

new word for the dictionary of greg...right up there with COACH whore.

FRAMILY is the extended circle of people in your life that you surround yourself with. The ones that you call on when you need someone to talk to, or a shoulder to cry on. The ones that are more than friends, but maybe not family...or maybe family but not as close as some of your friends. FRAMILY.

in a world where many GLBT folks have to create their own support network...FRAMILY can describe it well!

I love my FRAMILY!

Music...

so...I am a huge fan of music...I love it...it can make me feel emotions I didn't know were present.

a song can take me back to a place in time and remind me of happy, sad or a ton of other events in life.

when I'm down, music can pick me up. when I'm up, it can keep me there. sometimes it defines my mood without even meaning to do so. this morning I was listening to the iPod on shuffle and a Darren Hayes song came on, and I realized that I'm feeling this way lately...

"Are my lips unkissable?
Are my eyes unlookable?
Is my sex undoable?
Am I unloveable?
Are my words unlistenable?
Are my hands untouchable?
Am I undesirable?
Am I unlovable?"

was feeling a little magenta anyway, and hearing this song sort of helped me figure out why.

Boyfriend

it's a little word that can mean so much. sometimes it isn't enough to describe a relationship, sometimes it's too much. where is that fine line, and when do you cross it?

i've been seeing a boy for a month or so now, and he even went to san francisco with me for a few days when i was out on business. i referred to him as my boyfriend at one point, and i think it might have freaked him out. it wasn't done intentionally. i'm just struggling with where the line is for when someone is or isn't your boyfriend. when are they less? when are they more? it's been a long time since i've had anyone to call my boyfriend, so i admit to being more than a little confused by the term now.

do we have to be going steady, or exclusive for the term to apply? does it apply after X number of dates when both parties want to continue seeing each other? does it only apply when both parties agree to use the term? if i don't want to see anyone else and he does, can we use the term? what if the roles were reversed? what if neither one of us wanted to see anyone else and hadn't had the exclusivity talk, or were taking it slow - does that throw a wrench in things? if we're not using the bf term, how do we introduce each other? if boyfriend doesn't fit lover and partner certainly don't in this instance. we're more than just friends - we've slept together, cuddled and fooled around. i wouldn't necessarily be introducing a f**kbuddy to friends and family, so that term most definitely doesn't apply, and what happens if this is someone that you haven't even have sex with yet - the fbuddy term applies even less.

all i know is that i am enjoying spending time with him, i want to spend more time with him. i want him to meet my framily (friends and family) and i still don't know what to call him. i guess it's a mystery yet to be solved.

Dating...

taking it slow. taking it fast. sleeping together. cuddling. Does it matter? Is there a difference when you like someone? Is it okay to sleep together and have sex on the first date if you think there is relationship potential, or no? Is just cuddling acceptable when you sleep together the first few weeks/months? Should there be more?

I love all the questions that come out and about when you start seeing someone. I love the butterflies in your stomach at every date. I love that I look forward to talking to him when I get to, and the excitement that I experience when I see it's him on the phone!