Tons of Sweat...

so I have been sick and out of it for most of the past week. I came back from being on the road, and thought I caught a cold, and it just seemed to get worse from there. I went to the gym on Monday, and didn't go again until yesterday. I hurt when I just walked, so...the gym seemed out of the question.

Have only done cardio yesterday and today...and the sweat was pouring off of me both days. the shirts I have worn were so soaked through...they just went right into the laundry bag.

Maybe it's the sick wearing off...maybe I am actually working the cardio harder...but...wow!!!

In other gym related news...6lbs lighter...

mixed emotions...

disappointment and excitement all in the same weekend. The season finale of Torchwood was this weekend and I was disappointed to have it come to an end, but more disappointed in the way it ended. I just can't believe that two series regulars are gone...oy!

but then...on Sunday...Brothers and Sisters came back, and I am so happy to see that. I'm happier to see that Scotty will be back...I love Scotty...there can't be too much of him on that show!

so...roller coaster of an up and down weekend...this is why I don't watch too much tv...I get too attached!

smoking...

I forgot how much it's an annoying habit. no cussing me out for saying that...I have picked up a cigarette or two in my time...so I am as guilty as the next guy. but...when I chose to smoke, I don't light up inside or where it can impact others. I forgot how much you end up reaking of smoke when you go out to a bar where people can smoke inside. I forgot what it's like to be asked smoking or non smoking when you go to a restaurant until I got to North Carolina. It's odd how quickly things like that leave your collective memory until you are confronted with them again.

From Hell...

it's no just the name of a movie. Today was the travel day from hell...and I have two more to go before I am home again in my own bed. The day started early at LAX and I didn't land at O'Hare until much later, in the cold and rain...yuck!!! Two flights of standby and I finally got out...and I just wanted to give up. Too much turbulence from like Utah all the way to Chicago and kids threw up on the plane on the approach to O'Hare...woo hoo!!! Top it all off...American played National Treasure: Book of Secrets - the same movie I saw on my flight to LAX from JFK...the only one they have in their rotation currently? HMMMM...

just the travel day from hell...time for dinner and drinks in the windy city!!!

B. I - Before iPod

What did we do before iPod? I have often wondered about that. I resisted getting one for so long, but since I've had one, I don't really know how I lived without it. I have sooooo many songs on mine, and I can even add video. I can listen for days without a repeat. I can't imagine boarding a plane and not having access to most of my library of music and a movie or two.

I remember getting on the subway with a portable cd player, and a few cd's...but now...I have everything at my finger tips. I feel sorry for the folks that carry their portable cd players or walkmen. To not be able to carry a ton of their music with them is difficult to imagine.

What did we do before iPod? I mean, I even got my mom listening to one and adding her music...

favorite tshirts

so...for a long time, my favorite tshirts were ones that made my body look like it was in better shape than it was. I had this one that made my chest look good, even when it didn't. It also had a reference to Australia...which I can't wait to get to! Anyway...as my chest and body started to get in better shape, this tshirt totally helped to make me look even better! I loved it. I can't remember wearing it and eating something greasy...but apparently I did, because I got it out of the drawer today, fresh from the laundry, and there are two big grease circle stains on my favorite tshirt...and I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm bummed! I'm disappointed! I can't believe that it happened!

Can we talk?

So...all week long there have been serious talks about race because of this election cycle. I agree, it's an important topic in American life, it is a conversation that needs to be had, and is long overdue. I will probably be labeled racist for saying what I say next, and I am definitely not racist, but label me as you will. I am sick of hearing about race in America because of this election.

Why am I sick of hearing about it? Because, we aren't talking about all those other things that are happening that need conversations. Sexism, Homophobia, Classism - just to name a few.

We aren't talking about SEXISM in America. Come on, we all know Hil's getting the crap kicked out of her in some corners for no reason other than she's a woman - She doesn't show emotion, she's a bitch - she cries, she's too emotional. It's still an old boy's network, and if you don't talk, walk and piss like them, you don't stand a chance. Sexism my friends. Why are all of the strong women in politics accused of being lesbian (Hillary, Condie, etc)? Just because they're women in a man's world? Sexism (and a little of the next topic) my friends.

We aren't talking about HOMOPHOBIA. We all know that one's out there too...when a little boy can be murdered because he wanted another boy to be his valentine we need to have a serious conversation about homophobia. It's better to be a murderer than thought of as gay - great, go to jail - when you're bent over in your cell, let's talk about which is better, shall we? How come I pay my taxes and I am still a second class citizen that can't get married (unless I marry a woman)? How come it's not okay to race-bait, but it's still okay to gay-bait in the political world? Huh?

We aren't talking about CLASSISM. We aren't talking about how the rich are getting considerably richer and the poor are getting poorer, and the middle class are disappearing. What will happen when the divide is too great? What will happen when there are only the haves and the have nots? Who gets to wait in line for bread and toilet paper then?

I'm sick of talking about racism in america. I'm happy to talk about it...really, I am, but only when we start talking about sexism, homophobia and classism in the same context. And, then, only after we've had some serious discussions about what we are going to do to stabilize the economy, and end the war in Iraq and the senseless slaughter of our troops. (again - support our troops with all my heart and patriotism, but I don't support the war - so go ahead and call me un-patriotic...I've been called worse.)

So - come on America and our politicians, are we really going to talk about things, or are we just going to give some great sound bite speeches and call the problem solved. If you're going to talk about racism (sexism, homophobia or classism for that matter) you'd better be prepared to do more than talk, and give me ways you're going to fix the problem. Until then, it's just talk.